20 years of Gay porn has shaped me sexually.

20 years of Gay porn has shaped me sexually.I remember the first time I stumbled across gay porn in my 20's (old satellite tv) I turned on a xxx channel at lunch to discover a gay video playing. Not expecting this I was Initially shocked but I watched, then got an erection, a real hard one, I pulled out my cock and started rubbing it (much like I'm doing now) oh boy this felt real good, I dropped my pants stood in front of the TV and masturbated to the video and shot my load. I went back to work and the thoughts started in my head. What just happened? I was aroused and masturbated to gay porn, Am I gay? I was getting married to a female and I enjoyed sex with her, but this felt so good, I'm so confused... I think I'm gay... Over the next few months I would watch the channel hoping to see more, but it was just straight porn and it suddenly was not the same, kinda boring but the cumshot was so good now. Once in a while I would get güvenilir bahis rewarded with a quick gay clip on the channel preview, but no more gay videos. Well I got married, kept on masturbating to straight porn, fucked the new wife all was OK. Then came the Internet, I was quickly learning my was around (porn) but I didn't want to search for anything gay, but one day it happened, it found me. Now I spent hours with dialup looking at pictures and beating off probably looking pretty pathetic betting my cock slumped in front of my computer but it felt good in the end. But holy shit was there some strange pictures on the net that I would find myself masturbating too. Anal masturbating was next, early on in life I had fun with the plunger handle so this explains why I did that. Now I saw a lot of amateur stuff that was really hot, hey I have a video camera why not? Discovered now that I liked to masturbate to me masturbating, türkçe bahis so I made more videos, but jerking off 10 times the same way got boring so I introduced different positions, cum on face, different rooms, anal then outside. I was happy with this for 10 years or so, shot lots of cum, made some dildos, got caught masturbating a few times in front of the computer, but who hasn't. Now one day 10 years ago I discovered this new site like no other named oddly enough XHamster. This was a game changer. a site that you can upload personal videos, yes please! I uploaded these three videos under an anonymous profile. Now the fun started, other people like me started to view and comment on me masturbating on video, it was so hot, I'm hooked!I took the plunge!I made my profile on Sept 10 2009 and started recording myself outdoors in the woods masturbating, back at the computer I edited a four short videos named Lumberjacking #1 güvenilir bahis siteleri #2 #3 #4 that I uploaded in the month of November 2009 (last page of the outdoor videos) For some reason I deleted #1 and another cum in water video but three videos stuck.I continued as the husky lumberjack for many years but today its just not me. What changed was I discovered cam to cam sex, I could now interact with another man live, we can talk, moan tell each other what we want to do each other and finally cum together. During these cam sessions I have become a submissive bottom, My physical appearance has even changed, Im shaved, I wear ball stretchers and cock rings and a panty fetish. I set up to cam on my back with realistic cock dildos a big stack of stretchers and a whimper. My fantasy is to be fucked by another man who calls me a fag and abuses my asshole.My profile speaks for itself, I am a product of 20 years of gay porn and I am constantly evolving myself sexually and am excited to continue evolving sexually to one day take it to the last big step.In closing thanks for reading, I am wearing 110mm ballstretcher, my cock is hard and I will be masturbating to gay porn.